i have a question

do you hold on to something, hoping that one day, it might be the way you want it

or

do you let go and look for what you want, knowing that you most likely will never find it.

is it about giving in.....or about giving up?

i don't know.

you tell me.

sigh

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when time passes you by

In the midst of my exams, I realised something. I have never felt so stupid in my entirety. Mind you, I'm not trying to fish for compliments. It's true. I'm stupid. And if you say I am not, it doesn't matter because it crosses my mind. And I'm actually considering it as a huge possibility. I no longer feel confident with my (supposedly high)IQ because apparently, having a high IQ doesn't mean you can't not study for a test. And having a high IQ doesn't guarantee that I'll even pass. It's come to my attention that the only way I can actually survive the rest of my SAM course is to work bleeping hard. Thankfully, my exams are in November....hm...or do I mean unfortunately. I'm scared as hell because I'm afraid I can't even get a minimal TER of 70 to get into a university. I've been doing shit crap for the entire first semester. I suck ass(I mean this!) in accounts and spec math. I have the lowest marks for accounts and....I did SHIT for my recent spec math test. I don't know whats happening to me. I doubt in myself so much. Maybe all that I've been through the past year has conditioned me to feel like a complete failure. Maybe I am a complete failure. As far as I know, I don't know, and if I do know, I don't feel like I know. I'm the worst in class and...well, I've never been in that position before. Maybe it's just time I start working. What if it's too late. What if I'm destined to be stuck forever?

picking up the pieces

my head is spinning.

my trials is soon.

i feel like dying.

and i'm tired.

going back home fr the holidays.

the magic is over.....

it no longer feels like i'm with someone.

sigh. over too soon........

i shall post this before i forget

things i need to get. i shall not waste my money on things other than these.

1. gladiator sandals
2. high waisted shorts
3. black cardigan frm naf naf
4. leggings
5. flats

things i have to get soon
1. a new bottle of marc jacobs

:)

time and time again

"Daisy has been fucked over so many times that whenever someone says they love her, she pushes them away, and pushes and pushes, to see if they'll leave her; to test them. And when they do, which they will because there is no end to the amount of pushing, it becomes a self-fulfilling prophecy."

please come back...

it feels like falling all over again.